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How are you depressed when you’re always smiling???

I’ve had a really bad few days and it’s get me feeling really down, the fact that I haven’t been able to get out of the house much other than for work has just made me feel so bad in myself. It’s got me thinking though, I like to be honest with people about what’s wrong with me. If they ask me how it went at the doctors I won’t lie to people and tell them it went fine and that nothing is wrong even if I don’t know them well, I’ll still be honest.

I’m not ashamed to admit to people that I’m suffering with depression and anxiety. After all, some illness has completely taken over and changed my life so nobody expects me to happy and chirpy all the time.

A few thing I do get said to me a lot though is:

  • You’re always smiling though so you can’t be depressed?
  • You look so healthy I wouldn’t have guessed you’re ill.

First of all, I’m a really awkward person and I don’t know how to deal with being around people other than smiling to look like I know what’s going on and enjoying myself so it’s just become a habit now to smile when I’m around people. I’m not saying I hate being around people as when I’m around my friends I do genuinely smile and love it but when I’m around strangers I do feel really awkward so when they ask about my illness, I’ll be smiling throughout the whole story.

Secondly, I may look healthy as I have no symptoms that anyone would notice (other than weight loss which I’ve but some back on now). Just because I don’t look ill it doesn’t mean there isn’t anything wrong. I can’t say what is wrong with my stomach as of yet due to not knowing myself but having depression and anxiety has been one of the hardest things in my life to cope with. On top of the pain I’m already getting I’m constantly battling feeling exhausted from simple tasks, the thought of not wanting to go out as I know I will just feel horrible, the struggle of having panic attacks out of the blue and getting more and more worked up making me feel more and more ill.

Thank you for reading 🙂

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14 thoughts on “How are you depressed when you’re always smiling???

  1. You nailed it! People say the same thing to me…it’s like saying to someone with asthma “what’s wrong with you, there’s plenty of fresh air”. Just because you can’t see the illness does not diminish he impact.

    And I too believe in answering people honestly…(how are you? Not great but thanks for checking in!)

    Are you seeing a therapist (don’t answer if you don’t want to)? I just started to see someone and it is helping with my depression after just a few sessions…

    And thanks for sharing!

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    1. Exactly! Just because we can walk around and put on a brave face doesn’t mean we aren’t in constant pain and always struggling!

      Yeah there’s no point in hiding it and it actually makes me feel better knowing that people know.

      I’ve been given a number to call but I keep backing out and I’ve actually lost the number now, I was going to ask for it again at my next appointment as I know I’ll benefit I’m just too much of a wuss! I’m glad it’s helped you and its good knowing it does work!

      Thank you for your lovely comment😁

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      1. You’re very welcome! I feel like I’m walking in similar shoes…it is empowering to share my story, even if it’s really scary! Next week, I am giving a talk about my depression and anxiety , based on my post about it, to my peer network of child care providers…I volunteered and I’m so nervous and excited at the same time!

        Find that number…it can’t hurt…it’s nice to have someone who is neutral and their only focus is me, and they have a professional lens that helps things make sense. I’ll be interested to hear how things are going door you!

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      2. I totally agree it feels so much better to get it all out in the open doesn’t it! Oh gosh good luck with that! I hope to hear about how it goes😊?

        I will do after knowing it has helped you, thank you very much and keep me updated on how you’re doing😊

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      1. Hey! My name is Udita and I’m a new blogger. I was wondering if you could give me some tips. How do you find motivation to blog when you’re feeling really down?

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      2. Hey there 🙂 hope blogging is going well for you! The motivation is really just getting it all out in the open, it surprised me how much better I felt for it 😁 also reading other people’s stories made me feel better knowing that it’s not just me going through this! Feel free to ask any other questions 😁

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      3. Yeah blogging is going is actually going well so far. I seem to be able to write what’s on my mind easily so that’s one good thing. I’d really love for you to just check my blog and give any feedback you have. At this point that’s what I need. Thank you for noticing me😊. I’m sure you understand how much that means to us!

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      4. I’ve just had a look at your blog and it’s great! I love the content etc you wrote interesting stuff. I like to engage with people who write similar blogs too which by doing this you obviously are doing. Keep up what you’re doing, it really is amazing☺️

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